Restore(d)

You know how some people choose a word for the year to focus on (rather than having a new years resolution that never is attained), I felt nudged to have my word be: Restore(d), yes, both past and present tense. …

What’s Next?

How have I been doing? What’s next? That’s always a loaded question to answer these days. I wish I had better news to say that I’m completely healed, that I’m seeing major improvements in my health, and that we are …

Feelings

Many people have described me as joyful, bubbly, encouraging, hopeful, faithful, or if you’re my brother, bossy! However, I’ve realized that what I’m feeling hasn’t always matched what others see in me. Being chronically ill, I have felt at times …

Disappointment

Disappointment (according to Webster’s Dictionary):  “The feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the non fulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations.” Have you ever expected something good to happen only to be disappointed it never came to fruition? I’ve been …

Still-ness

  Being still is one of the hardest things for me to do. I’m a doer, and I don’t like “dead” time. I naturally am drawn to accomplishing tasks, checking things off my to-do list, and I enjoy knowing I’ve …

Why Me?

Why me? I can’t help but ask that question when day after day I continue to experience pain, fevers, nausea, fatigue, flu-like symptoms. Why so long? It’s been over 7 years of seemingly worsening of symptoms as the years go …

Will Healing TRULY make me happy?

In the last 7 years, I don’t think I’ve wanted anything more than to be healthy. Lyme disease and its co-infections have invaded every single part of my life. Physically, emotionally, spiritually-it has consumed me. Every minute in my day …

When the Wait Isn’t Over

I have resisted writing a blog update, mainly because there are still many unanswered questions with my sickness. Usually the Lord instills a specific message or theme in my heart, and then I blog about it. Not the case this …

What Should I Do Next? What’s the “Right” Thing?

During the last 7 years of sickness, the questions: “What should I do next? Am I doing the “right” thing?” have been at the forefront of my mind. Those questions have often consumed my thoughts more than I’d like to …

Healing Amidst Pain

It has been 5 days since I have left my house. I have been struck with an intense bout of the stomach flu coupled with what seems to be a respiratory flu. Many people endure this sickness every year and …